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Life is Awe

Life is Awe

By: Monica T. Lockhart 2B (So7)

May 30, 2012

Drowning, my savior - formed man to pull me above the bless-ed waters.

Grateful for the send I fell in

Hottest fire for who was to be my lover- a liar.

Heart full of desire, declaring loyalty;

While formed man declared typicality

Forced back into reality a message from Mother is received

Sent he was to save at that stage, the journey continued is your own sister

Thou has no option other than to move on.

To be alone I stand – patience a longest lesson

Teachings pressed firmly in my right hand

Knowledge reveals calmness, with the knowing I am never lonely

The road of must travel has many bends and is often stony

Landscapes along the way release of peace and joy

 Through this journey learning that life is not His toy.

But mankind is a puzzle and why does life-time friend become manipulative foe

Then smile in your face and name you low?

These issues you ponder my child are of no wonder

Give no worry

Life is swift and you must scurry; learn what you Must

Rest in thee.

Life is awe, but the Universe is far greater and Full of Mercy.

Reveal

… And the words come from mountains high a whisper whispering for life answers to questions over and over; hearing is difficult learning is mystery words any can hear. Step by step by step by step a lone given instruction wait; hear; wait to hear. Wait. To. Hear.

… And the words come from mountains high whisper a whisper whispers…

Revelation.

(2B) Monica T. Lockhart (SoSevyn)

March, 2012

Epiphany

Spirit has made me the me that I am

I, am not a follower of follower’s of liars.

I, am not a follower of follower’s of hue

Man. Deeper I see.

We are all made to be, who we were made to be

I cannot be you and I do not expect you to be me

Beyond my Will to ever judge you

Why then dowse thee judge my hue?

Hear them. See them.

Delighting in manipulations lie

Know not of destined good

First Will denied.

Simple, yet most scrutinized:

Wickedness intrigues the bastardly demon,

Whilst they who seek truth

For righteous is reason.

Cheese & Crackers!

Cheese & Crackers!

(Because I will NOT use the Lords name in vain)  

By: 2B Monica T. Lockhart (Sevyn)

January 24, 2012

To have a love at the expense of my dignity, that is one amenity no man shall steal from me

She, bragging on what she can do, neglect her own joy to make him happy

Lettin’em pass with the open option to play with any she’s nappy, just as long as he comes home

After his long evening roam

Dude!  With your ulterior motives

Asking me to be his woman when he knows he’s not my man when I’m not around

Wants me to be in an exclusive - while he’s not in an exclusive

With this, I’m not down

Then there’s the down grade mofo

You know? The one wayyyy below

Average.  He only relates with perfection.

Roll his eyes at you boo-boo.

Will you try to keep up PLEEZE…

Wonder if he’s checked the mirror lately or brushed his teeth - I’m just sayin’

You, yeah you accept that too

It’s not about what him look like, its how he treats when he’s with you.

Damn! Right?

Then this one with no motivation always got this celebration going on in his head.

Wanna roll in the bed. But for the life of him He Cain’t Get Right!

Don’t know how to step to me; don’t know how to come correctly

Don’t know how… ANYTHING!

Cheese & Crackers!

And when I speak on it,

Got these mofo’s defending what the devil do

‘cause they do it too.

Ahhh…Frustration

If it’s wrong or right

It always helps

To release through a write.

Immorality/Immortality

January 20, 2012

Cometh the end of days near

The 7^th lamb shall be revealed

And all done in night

Shall be lit with thousands light

Liars honored gallantly for having lizard tongue

Immorality shall be norm

And those born of light

Shall be seen naïve, oddly - trite

Ready thyself

Times approach swiftly.

Destiny

By: 2B Monica T.L. (So7)

January 9, 2012

…………………………………………………….

Help

No one hears

Screams

Care

Perhaps the others scream so loud

Till a scream does not compare

Drowning in a sea of

Fear

Loneliness

Pain

Conscious

Of destiny of

Until bitter cold

End

Does not come

Fast

Swift

Is not my fate

Slow and steady…

Destroys

And hate.

God

You

Devil

Who?

Which

Keeps kicking

Knocking down

That’s The Way Love Goes

Played me like a fiddle - truly you did. Had my heart playing songs of despair. I’ve gotta tell you I’ve mourned the loss, I’ve thought about it, I’ve attempted to weave through the web. I honestly think you weave well. Trying to see where it all got tangled. Perhaps it was when I opened my eyes! I’m too observant. I’ve always seen too much - not good for you, and sometimes I think, not much better for me either.

Just doesn’t make since… But we cannot make sense out of nonsense, now can we? Why the game? I don’t know, some people just never grow up. Mind games in the end HURT people deeply, scar people emotionally.

I remember you whispering to me, “it’s all about you making me happy”.  Do you feel that you have to please as many women as you can? Spreading yourself a little thin aren’t you? I’d suppose that was the reasoning behind the apologies - spreading it thin and all…

What? you want each woman in your life to believe she is the one and only woman in your life (that’s so sweet of you to care); or is it so they will not be with any other men… is that it? Possible competition insecurities, or just greed?

Oh it’s cool and all, yeah - we go way back; and that’s really where it should have stayed. You stung boi! But if you wanted it - I would have given to you with open arms - because I FELT for you.

Just wanted to tell you, someone of special interest was knocking at my door today. That’s the way love goes. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ 

Be-Lov-ed

By: 2B Monica T. Lockhart (So7)

January 1, 2012

Happiest when receiving

Expecting accolades when giving

Never seeming to appreciate what was bestowed upon you

Everything

You forget

Selfish child.

I watched

With loving eyes

Remembering every step  

We took.

Remembering…

That you, had forgotten.

Kept Safe My Joy

By 2B Monica T. Lockhart (So7)

Penned: January 2, 2012

I turn on my P.C.

The one with the monitor you brought me

Looking for a message, a smile icon, something from you

Though, I don’t want to

Must be something subconscious my mind needs to do, to get over the…

Our seven, sevyn, 7, didn’t fit - no winning combination

No nervous butterflies - No uneasiness - Always

Always, always being so careful in your presence

With every word and with every action

 – it was very clear that the wrong combination would quite possibly send…

Running so fast

And away

I was always so nervous about that, always feeling that I had to be so careful,

Trying to be your perfect

Like a very fine and fragile vase

I wanted to breath – needed to know

You planted these doubting seeds in me

And, and

And seeds grow

I couldn’t relax with these thoughts

I had to ask, igniting a furious inferno, leaving ashes

In what WAS my place? (Unanswered question – shouldn’t have been a reason to question)

My immortal soul slowly begins to rise again

Just like it did then, and then, and

Then happiness in me will shine again

But perhaps this time…

Perhaps this time, I’ll be the selfish one

Allow entrance of the world – NOT

Perhaps this time, safe my joy

Best kept to my self